a sense of loss ...

If you were walking back from a well, carrying a bucket of water & someone jostled you, there could be spilled from the bucket only that which it contained. As you walk along the way of life, people are constantly bumping into you. If your heart is full of ill nature, bad temper, and ugly disposition, only those things will be spilled from it. On the other hand, if it is full of love, you will spill a smile or pleasant remark. You can spill from your bucket only that which it contains. ~Author Unknown

Lately, I am like a bucket filled with much discontentment, unhappiness, anger. Unfortunately, only those dear and near to me will feel the impact of these spilled contents when they bumped into me.

What is happening to me? I seem to be losing the zest for life.

It seems everything is deliberately going against me ... the good is drifting away from me and the bad is closing in.

I know I sound very negative ... and it's not healthy especially when I need to be a walking and living example of strength, perseverance, courage and hope to my precious ones.

I pray for these negative vibes to go away ...